Baby of the 80's

9:19pm: ( Finally.... )

12:30pm: Yay... back down in SD with my girl, Ariel...
Though I do miss..



Duke( gotta love Encinitas firemen who were once Navy Seals and live in La Jolla... yeah baby!)


Shae and Sylv





And Maroon 5


From last time... haha...


I will put up alllll my Ox pictures when I get home....

Have a good weekend...
xoxo
Meg

2:38pm: woooowww... i can't believe 2 weeks have gone by already... my trip is half way over.... that is totally crazy....
i'm having an amazing time, meeting tons of new people( jewish boys? yes of course), and being indepdent and learning about myself... i did laundry for gods sake yesterday... and if you know me.. you know that is an extremely rare or even unheard occurance....
yeah, i have a sad day or moment at times.... but everything is turning out okay... just take it as it goes...
i miss everyone so freakin much!! thanks to everyone whose emailed me....it made my day( hey megan and christian..if you read this can you commment me your email address again.. the computer deleted them.. grrrrr)
i'm gonna go..... maybe punting or getting ben's cookies???
love to everyone...

11:00am: Well, it's offical. I'm all packed and ready to go and leave LA not to mention the country for a month. And, of course, without parentals.... hehe
A little scary, and a lot exciting.
I expect e-mail from all of you guys! Write me at xosocogirlox@aol.com. I'm definitely gonna need some news from home.
I'll try to update the LJ from England( and if i can ever get these Del Mar pictures to work .. grrr... i might need shaeda's help again... )
I'll miss you all so much. Have an amazing July!
xoxoxox
meg

6:08pm: Random Rambling:
Why do I always have to see Kevin Dees( yes, Rick's son who moved back in with this parents for the summer and is majorly hot) whenever I look my worst. From being doctor's office on Vineland, to Iguana after school in my uniform, and today when I was just trying to go to the market in my sweats, wifebeater, and hat a la Britney Spears.
This is definitely not fair and he probably doesn't want me to come over anytime soon anymore.

10:18pm: This week was our 3rd annual trip to San Clemente for Shan's belated birthday. Honestly, I can't imagine high school without this trip. We all get to be together and have sooo much fun. It consisted of laying out on the beach, playing volleyball,meeting cute gay guys like Leo who liked my chanel glasses, watching super scary movies and allie scaring me with her face haha, acting like total dorks with our water guns and waving at the trains, going into town into ConRev( sex shop) cute stores and flirting with Brian who is Shan's Irish boy haha, flirting with all the sexy boys on the 5.... and many more. But, I loved just getting away from all my problems and being with my girls....

( Pictures from this week )

5:18pm: I think Chicago expresses it best about how i want to feel though....
"Children play in the park, they don't know
I'm alone in the dark, even though
Time and time again I see your face smiling inside

I'm so happy
That you love me
Life is lovely
When you're near me
Tell me you will stay
Make me smile

Living life is just a game so they say
All the games we used to play fade away
We may now enjoy the dreams we shared so long ago

Oh, my darling, got to have you
Feel the magic when I hold you
Cry sweet tears of joy, touch the sky

Now I need you more than ever
No more crying...we're together
Tell me you will stay
Make me smile"

Hmm I'm off to Sylv's. Her combination of uglyness and smellyness might make me feel better.

5:02pm: I honestly don't know what's wrong.
I've been having so much fun since school has been out and going out all the time.
I just feel so.... empty.
My family is sick of me being grumpy and moping when I am home because that's when thoughts really can sink in. They tell me to "snap out of it" and to "talk through it" but that is quite possibly the worst advice I have ever heard.
No one can just turn on a little switch that can make one feel better. It's just impossible.
And, maybe, I don't want to talk right now. Especially because most of the time I don't even know what is wrong with me. Or when I do know, I don't want to talk because it brings up really painful meomories or I don't think anyone will understand or want to hear.
I feel way alone.

11:03pm: Yay! Sylvana, her friend from NYLF, Jessica, and Shaeda and I had our "day of fun." We started off by going to Melrose and Ventura( We saw little Olsen at Ron Herman (and everyone is asssskkkinnggg haha ) Shaeda knocked over a mannequin, and Jessica tried on all the make-up so we could talk to the french hot guy and Sylv bought lipgloss as a pity purchase haha ) to go shopping and got lots of cute stuff and ended up at Ago for dinner for Shaeda's Birthday where we saw Jeff Ross and Kirsten Dunst without Jake. On the rocks? Tomorrow, is Harry Potter ( or HP) at the Mann's Chinese Theatre!


Shaeda and her birthday candle at Ago.



Me, Shaeda, Sylv, and Jessica(l to r)

2:58pm: yay.. pictures
( My digital camera works again! )

7:16pm: Chilling with my girls at Shan's.... I have a lot to write about from the last few nights..
Supplement to the last entry..

9:19am: I'm doing a quick cliff notes verison too....
-Prom-
Prom '04 kicked ass!
Our group consisted of:
Sylv and Matt
Shaeda and Krystal ( thanks for helping with my hair!)
Allie and Dylan
Dani and Drew
Shannon and Dom
Katie and Christian( goozinator)
Me and Matt(Sexyass.. for Katie)

We had an awesome time at the dance and everyone looked gorgeous and headed over( in a very long cab ride) to Georgia's for the after party. Unfortunately, we were kicked out by Mr. Andrew. ( and our Rolling Rock was gooooonnne) Oh well. Then, we went over to Shannon's until everyone had to leave but Allie, Shan, Shaeda,, Dani, and Drew spent the night.
Dani,let me just say I'm so extremely proud. So, so proud.
This week was awesome too. Cruise Reunion as I like to call it. On Thursday, I went to have dinner at Asia de Cuba with Jacob and Garrett from this winter. Leslie and their family also were there. We had a great time and it was so cool to see them again. We also went over to the Fountain Room at the HOB which was awesome cause I hadn't been there forever.
Friday, Ariel came to town. We ended up going to Shannon's to celebrate for Shaeda's birthday. The Fab Five and our honorary member searched for parties as usual. We went to a few but they were kind of lame. We ended up at In'N'Out chatting at like midnight haha.
Saturday, Larry and Susan came up to meet us and the girls all went out for lunch. I went to mayfield for a little bit to see the peformance. Shan was absolutely amazing as usual. Ariel got back from the hospital visiting Elana and both of our families went out for more reunion time.
Sunday, I saw Garrett again for awhile. We hung out before his family came back for awhile and then they had to take a flight home at night. I ended up going to Joe's for our last dinner until the Fall. So sad. Many showed up.

Anyway, that the short verision of what's been going on the past few weeks....

Shaeda has just informed me that it is the Jewish holiday, Shauvot, from her friends in Israel. Happy Shauvot!

xoxox

9:10am: I think this defines my life as sad as it may be.
I scored a 87% on the "How Valley Are You?" Quizie! What about you?</b>

9:00am: PPPAUUULLLLL
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
Paul
x1,000,000

Yeah, Control F that biaaatch. Haha I love you little workout partner. Don't worry you really are buff.

9:55pm: For you, megan
I found this yesterday, and couldn't resist putting it up.


You and I have grown a lot since then. Unfortuneatly, we don't see each other everyday at Crawford's class at LH Pre-K. Instead, we are at our respective schools with our sights set on college. We don't wear that crazy of clothes( at least I don't think!) We were both so carefree. Now, we have both gone through major losses. Together. And, we are indescribably stronger because of that. But, one thing hasn't changed. Our friendship. Even though we can't see each other everyday; our friendship is so strong and keeps growing. I know that even if we don't talk for awhile; we will pick up right back where we left off. I know you have my back and you always know I have yours. I love you girl and I just want you to never forget that.
xoxox

8:09am: Ughhh AP on friday was so draining. I got so bored writing 3 essays in 2 hours without a break. Oh well though I'm so glad it's over. We got out at like 12 and we went on our movie plan. Shaeda, Sylv, Allie, Katie and I went to Paseo and hit up some lunch. We then went to go see Mean Girls. So freaking funny I got to tell you. Then, Allie and Katie had to leave but Shannon joined us and we movie hopped over to New York Minute. Hmm can I tell you how badly I want to be them and date Jared and Riley haha. The little girls in the theater though I was cool cause I went to school with them. Yeah impressing the little kids. You know it. I also got to tape " Joan of Arcadia" and hear AOF on the show. Aww so proud of the boys.
The rest of the weekend was sort of family time like a loser haha. Cause most of my friends were studying for AP Bio or out of town.
Saturday, I went to Cedars( my favorite place ever haha) for an appointment with my mom. Then, since we finished early, we decided to go to the Ivy. We didn't have a reservation but we acutally got in and my mom saw Robert Duvall and started freaking out haha. Then , we went shopping at MAC, Kitson, and Lisa Kline and I spent wayyyyy too much money.
Not too much else went on this weekend. I bought some flowers for my mom and made her breakfast in bed before she left for Vegas on Sunday. Oh yeah, and my dad got mad and yelled at me because I told him that SAT they subtract points if you get something wrong.
Aww yes at times it's quite clear why I wanted to run away last week.

10:27am: When I get home fromt he East Coast trip, my dad decides to tear up our house, true contractor style. So, my computer with my LJ and digitial program is screwed for a couple months.
So, I finally got a few minutes at school and some pictures from Claire.
Our trip back east was awesome. Claire,Katie Sylv and I shared a room(oooo hot I know) and we had an amazing time especially in NYC shopping, going to serendipity, having crazy cabs, seeing Hugh Jackman on Broadway. Also, sexy Jared, Jamie and the other fun college boys. Waking up guys in their dorms rocked, as well as the supercool blue light phones. Also, if I ever say i want to move to Bethlehm Penn( which i never will) remind me of the stupid racists and ignorant people at Red Robn. We all loved DC of course too. I looooved BC, NYC , Georgetown and Yale and Brown of course but the last two are extremely funny because I will never ever get in.
Since I've been home, I've been studying for APS and finals and on the weekend partying with the girls. Devin, Krystal, Shannon, Dani, and I went to two parties last weekend but left cause they weren't fun or broken up and went to Armen's house with Nick,Dave, Chase and Martin. Good times were definitely had indeed. We need to follow that up again soon, right?
two pictures from our trip
The girls... Katie, Claire, Sylv and I in SoHo. Sylv and I are twins-os in our Everyone loves a Catholic or Jewish girl Shirts, uggs matching the jacket, jeans, and headbands. No we didn't plan it...

Yes... yale and NYU butt shorts... Havard does not make them because they are " lude" whatever ..... yale is better

9:05am: It's been awhile...
I've been talking to Dani about how low I've been feeling lately. I don't even know why and I don't want to show it partly because I don't want to bring everyone else down.
But, I've just learned within the past few years that I need to do what I want to do and I know that my friends will be there for me. And, if you don't like me because of something, then that is fine. In the years past, I have seriously worried too long about pleasing everyone in my life, and I just don't have the energy to do that anymore. It was driving me crazy.
It also seriously stings hiding your feelings about certain people. Pretending that you only "want" them. Nothing else. Realizing that you are both in two different places and nothing can currently change it right now. Realizing you want to see someone but at the same time you don't because it feels good but hurts at the same time. It is really the oddest feeling.
Oh well. What are you gonna do? Just take it a day at a time even though I've been doing that since,oh, the start of high school.
VENICE though tomorrow with my girls... only a few more hours until break!

10:07am: Happy Birthday to Allie!!!
Only one year my friend until the REAL partying begins!!!
I love you!!!

7:50pm: I honestly love my true friends.... I feel like the luckiest person in the world to be around such beautiful people.

We haven't had a lot to do after this week. So yesterday, after school, Katie, Sylv, Shaeda and I had Starbucks for a little snack all attired in our St. Patrick's Day garb given to us by Shannon. We just had fun talking and basically tanning sitting at the table outside. Sylvana saw these guys and she was like, " Oh look at those hotties," being sarcastic which only Sylv can do quite well and something I admire. So we all turn and look and these like semi-dorky junior high boys. We all chuckle and turn around and regain our composure, and I was just like," Umm guys... We are wearing leprechaun hats." It was great,but you definitely had to be there.

Today, we decided to go to St. Francis to watch the boys run track( Sylv's brother was running) and hopefully catch the boys playing varisty baseball but unfortunately they were at Brookside. Shannon, Sylv and I definitely had our fun though espeically when we pretended to be in the race.

We talked to the Andrews for awhile before they started play pratice and Mr. Colin and dancing with the flag pole.. oooo. Hanging out with guys in a school setting reminds me of how much I miss going to a co-ed school. I love Mayfield and most of the people there, don't mistake what I'm saying, but I miss the relationships I had with guys at school.

Oh well. College will rock when it finally comes.

I'm having a smidge of junioritis. Yes, it exists.

xoxox

9:06am: Events of the last week....
*Going to see Mischa B dance....
*Joe ordering me Apple Martinis.. " I hope that's ginger ale" ...no
*Getting almost sent to Juvey at the Hancock Party
*"Pound the Rock"... uumm okay that's the 20th time tonight
*Hooking it up... umm two being sexy Allie and Shannnie.. haha jk
*Diane and Snickers passing... i miss them
* Funeral( where I had the horrible, insecure, icky feeling that I was back in Junior High) but I wanted to go despite knowing I would feel like that because of my relationship with the Grahams and my friends who still go there
*Peforming- 5 dance shows... eeeeee
*Brit Concert with my girls shannie, sylv and claire
*" My name is Charlie" " So is this car! "
*Going to Jackie's to chill and avoid LA traffic( cool zip locks, coffee bean and red shoe run, my new nickname=MDG haha)
*"Pre-Showing" kind of like pre-gaming except before a show hahaha...
*Being mad at my JoJo( "I have animosity towards you." " Hold on.... 'Animosity: A bitterness or hatred.' Oh that sucks " " Haha did you just look at the dictionary" " Maybe... "
*getting my cool but really messed up mystic tan
*DANI'S 17TH BIRTHDAY!!! I LOVE YOU MY LITTLE BABY!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
* Happy lil St. Paty's Day. My half Irish side is proud....

Time to do something semi-productive

11:25pm: I'm in the middle of dance concert so I don't really have time to update until then but I just wanted to add some pictures from this week before I go picture crazy with my next entries from the concert....



" The Russian" , Me, and Joe after we went to see Baryshnikov dance last week.

Random pictures before the Britney Concert on Monday



Claire and I



Gotta love Claire, Shannie, and Sylv



A little sassy for Shannie and I....



Whose that hot girl?? Yes yes the one on the LEFT... haha JK sylv

I'll write when I regain my sanity..... too much has gone on this week
xoxo

9:36am: Do it ... it's fun! stolen from meg
Here's what you do:
1. Find your birthday month
2. Strike out the things that don't apply to you
3. Bold the things that describe you
4. Copy and paste the rest of the months
DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical
( Rest of the Months )

4:31pm: Countdown to Brit---6 days!
Ahhh yes it's almost.
I can feel it. Dance Concert....
The signs are definitely not knowing any of your pieces even though it's next week, staying at school until 9 everyday, and me needing even MORE caffeine to get through the day. ( My venti is right next to me... aka my bff)
Although, tech is kind of fun. Definite bonding experience.
Which, made me realize a really sad point. I was in class yesterday talking to some of my senior friends in dance and Jacqueline was like," This month we are all going to know what school we are going to and then in three months we'll be gone!" I was like, " Aahh don't say that!!"
That's soooo scary. I'm going to miss them so much, especially those in dance.

Time for Kenji!!!!
xoxo

7:57pm: Gotta Love the Game Faces....
SCU Pic... courtesy of Ms. Claire




L to R....
Me, Shan, Paige, Lightner. Hofer(hoffer?...?!?), Mattie, Lindsey, Nick, Timmy ( Timmie???.. I'm not good with the spelling i know.. but it's hard with some of the names...I have a weird spelling too so I know)Ryan, and Pat

Game faces were hard to do when people were staring at us haha...

xoxo